the first snow

I saw the first snow today. took a walk in the forest i grew up with. I saw myself as a child playing hide and seek with my babybrother and best friend. My mother has apperantly planted the cactus we've had since i can remember in those woods. the snow fell softly on me while i remanissed my childhood. I saw myself running over the fields and climing trees. I was so happy..

I'm s very buisy lately, but still lonely and bored with my life.
yesterday i commited my first brake in with kim. We didn't get much out of it, but i felt more alive for a second..
I love jesper, but i feer i have let him go...


maria