fearing fear

I'm sitting here trying to make head of it all. Hon after you left I felt so incredible hollow, like a huge part of my heart left with you. I feel so torn cuz I let fear take you away. I would have done anything for you, but when even you can see i don't belong in your world, then maybe I'd give up too much of my self for you to still care for me.
Maybe that's what bothered you so much that night. Anyway you know I never tried having butterflies in my stomach till i met you, so I can't believe I just said i'd lay our love on the ground, but a love that great scares the hell out of me.

love you always..
Maria