The long road home..

This is my first post in a long time, and i won't bother trying to update you on what's happend since last cuz there's just too much..!
But i will say this thoug; the girl I was when I started this blog has grown up and found somewhat peace and stabillity in life. I've accepted that I'll never get rid of my depression, and turns out it was the key to making peace with who i am and how i look.
Now all that's left is trying to heal the wounds that still hide underneath the pretty surface.
I've begun working at a nursinghome, where i help ppl who really needs me. this has soehow oppened my eyes to lifes realities.. there is no deeper meaning to life, and most ppl never find true happiness, so i've given up trying to find those things.. it may sound depressing, but in reallity, it's kinda a relief.
at the same time, my new job gives me a chance to feel like i'm slowly making up for all my mistakes. I have supressed my consience so well, that I didn't realize how much it has been suffering..

I'm not saying i've changed 180 but i've deffently learnt some heavy lessons lately which has made life a little more bareble.

Well that's all I had for now.. maybe I'll write more later

Love all of you ppl who mean so much in my life <3

~Maria~